It’s been a little while since I’ve posted. We’ve been in a place where we’ve just been waiting to hear about and schedule inspections. In this inspection stage of it all we’ve had missed calls, lots of voicemail’s left unanswered, miscommunication, scheduled and rescheduled appointments, and lots of impatience on my end. I’ve had many wonderful friends step in and set me straight. I need to relax and trust God’s timing. And I need to stop trying to force things to happen faster than they are naturally. I’m trying.. but it’s a struggle for me for sure.
With that being said, we did have our health inspection – and passed! It was an awesome feeling to have that completed. My husband and I have been working hard for months to get our house ready, but the few days leading to that inspection were pure chaos. We cleaned and re-cleaned every inch of our house because we (I) was so sure the inspector would look at everything. A friend from my foster care classes reminded me that these inspectors are not against us – they are not looking for reasons to fail us. And that was so, so true. Hubby was home for the inspection while I was at work – but he said the inspector was very kind and supportive about our home and what we were trying to do. We needed to fix our water temperature, but fortunately that does not cause us to fail.
Tomorrow we will have our fire inspection. The fire marshal will be at our house at 9:00! I am not nearly as anxious about this inspection, because we didn’t get a multiple page list of things to do for it in the mail beforehand. I am hoping that it is short and simple, and trusting that our house is ready. After this inspection, our home worker will contact our references, and then she will type up our home study to be approved. And then we wait! It could be days (they’ve told us some people get called before they receive their license), weeks, months.. no one knows. Like I mentioned above, I am not good at waiting. But this will be a different kind of waiting. Right now, we’ve been waiting, but it’s been on things that we can partially control (I can call and schedule things, I can get my house ready, etc). After all the inspections are done, all the paperwork is in, the interviews are complete.. there is nothing we can do on our end to make anything go faster. We wait. And we pray. And we research and educate ourselves about this journey that we’re about to go on.
This song keeps coming to mind – not just today, but throughout this entire process. These lyrics in particular:
And I will move ahead bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting I will serve You
While I’m waiting I will worship
While I’m waiting I will not faint
I’ll be running the race even while I wait
This is my prayer for us. Instead of being impatient and frustrated, I want us to focus on the Lord during this time of waiting. I want us to learn and grow together, to enjoy time with just the two of us, and to find ways to serve the Lord in our day to day lives. I want to be bold and confident about where God is taking us – I don’t want to continue questioning everything and trying to figure out ways to be in control. I want to take EVERY step in obedience – even if it is not what I want. That is what I’ll be praying for us. Because I am a selfish, controlling, sinful human and all of what I just mentioned is not what I’ve been doing up until this point. Today I am extra thankful for a God that redeems and restores us – and loves us even though we continue to fail.